The emotional mom roller coaster

10th August 2015

Hi, hope everyone is doing well. I can’t seem to wrap my head around the fact that it is August already. Seeing back to school ads still make me sad even though it has been a long time since I was headed to the classroom…random photo of me when I was in the 5th grade on a Turkish beach follows.

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This week I’ve been thinking a lot about how motherhood is definitely a bit of an emotional roller coaster. In celebration of my emotions and feelings, I’m sharing all that I felt this past week. As you’ll see it is all over the map, so some things may contradict one another 🙂

Angry
This ad. I’m actually kind of ashamed I own a stroller from this brand after seeing this.

Anxiety
Am still having some anxiety related to my job. With so many new people in the office, it is taking me a bit of time to figure out my place again. I know it will come with time, but there is still some anxiety at the moment as I want to make a good first impression on the people I haven’t worked with before.

Frustration
Let’s face it motherhood can be frustrating at times. There have been definite moments of frustration this week as she’s been teething and not content unless she’s being carried around/entertained. She’s also in a ‘I want daddy’ phase, so this has been a bit rough for me. A perfect segue way to my next feeling…

Guilt
The ‘mom guilt’ is ever-present these days. It never seems to stop. It comes when I drop C off at daycare crying and wonder if she’ll have a good day (9 times out of 10 she does). It happens on the weekend when I feel like I’m never doing enough and should be doing more as I wasn’t around all week. It’s there when I complain to the other half that I need a break.

Happiness
There is a lot to be happy about these days. Seeing your baby take her first real steps on her own is quite something. Although I have to admit when she becomes a full-blown walker I’m going to be very afraid. She is going to be everywhere and faster than she is now.

Hungry
The snacking needs to stop. We need to stop keeping things like Twizzlers and chips in the house. When you don’t eat dinner until late these things are dangerous.

Impatience
Teething sucks. I just want it over with or at least for some more teeth to make an appearance. Just need to feel like we are making progress here. Where are these teeth?

Joy 
The joy in Chloe‘s face when my husband opens the door after work is something else. She squeals in delight and is so excited to see her daddy. It gives me joy too.

Laughter
I stumbled across these motherhood comics the other day and this one in particular made me laugh out loud.

Love
Seeing Chloe at the end of the workday and having her reach up her arms as she wants me to pick her up fills my heart.

Panic
Those of you who know me in real life know I hate flying. As crazy as it may seem I panic even when loved ones are on planes. Am now happy my parents have arrived back home after a couple of long-haul flights this weekend.

Relaxed
I’ve discovered reading again and am enjoying reading at night. For those of you looking for an easy and entertaining read check this book out.

Surprise
I’ve surprised myself over the past couple of weeks as I have actually been able to make my 630 a.m. workouts. If I don’t do it then it’s not happening at the end of the day.

Teary
As mentioned above Chloe is in a ‘I want daddy phase’ when we are both around. I have to admit it is making me kind of sad as she only seems to really want me for the boob.

Want
I want this dress. It looks like it be a good work dress for fall.

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